The Biggest Failure Beats The Hell Out Of Never Trying

Ok so,

Here I am, a current student at Memorial University of Newfoundland. Yes, even in the summer. This is my third consecutive summer of full time courses, not including the semesters in-between. Crazy, you may think? Well, yes and no but I've always believed that the early bird catches the worm.
I've always believed that you are in control of your own destiny. I don't believe in luck, I believe in making it happen. And this has been my philosophy since my experience began at University.
I've been working for the past couple of years obtaining all the pre-requisites I need in order to apply to several Pharmacy Schools across Canada. This is my dream. This is my passion. This is HOPEFULLY my future career.
Along the way there have been many mishaps. Mistakes made by myself as well as unfortunate circumstances which have certainly influenced my performance at school. But at the end of the day, I know I've tried my damnedness. I've worked hard to be greater than great and to get exceptional grades - not just good ones. So far it has paid off.
I've already attended Dalhousie University (1/190 out of over 600 applications) and Memorial University (1/96, with over 300 applications) for Pharmacy interviews for Fall 2006 admission.
I've also written all my tests/exams for the other universities I have applied to.
Even these accomplishments are something I am proud of and I can't help but brag...regardless of the ultimate outcome.

Now it's just a waiting game.

Many people have said to me how impossible it is to gain acceptance into Pharmacy. But I have to think...well SOMEBODY's gonna get in every year right?!??!
Many think I am crazy for taking on so many challenging, academic-based courses, (with the exception of this semester) and putting myself through hell each semester trying to make the top grades. But I say, well SOMEBODY's gotta get the top grades, right?!???!
Yeah, very optimistic and very "ambitious" of me. However, if I didn't think it was possible then why would I try?

But the truth is, grades are simply not enough.
In the end, all that matters is how you sell yourself. How much you can brag without egotism about all the things you do to help the community, individuals, exceptional work performances, etc.
All you can do is try to make a board of judges laugh and cry in the same sitting.
All you can do is try your hardest to ensure that you stand out - personality, smile, and all.
All you can do is cross your fingers and hope to hell that you get in.
So here I am after years of believing that nothing is about luck, but yet I can't help but wish on a star and pray every night with the complete humble intention of getting a shot at my dream.

And the biggest failure? I may not get in. I may have to wait another year to apply again. I might spend years upon years applying to something I dream about every night. But I know I won't give up trying.
That little childhood rhyme always plays in my head...
"If at first you don't succeed, try try try again."

So what's the worst part of this whole experience? Waiting!
Whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you" is a complete and utter moron. Because for myself, not knowing is the WORST feeling in the world.

I have to contend with my circumstance. I have to wait...and wait...and wait...
What will the future hold?
Stay tuned to find out.